Gay Drug Addiction and Coming Out
I went into a drug rehab program two years ago for treatment of a crystal meth addiction. While in rehab, I went to all of the groups and did my assisgnments. As hard as it was to detox from the meth, it was even harder to keep my secret. As the days after detox passed and my mind started to clear all I can remember everyone saying was honesty…You have to be honest. My whole life I never trusted anyone and now they tell mye my recovery from meth addiction was contingent upon me being honest. They would never find out my secret.
Then one day I was sitting with another guy in drug rehab and he shared with me that he was having problems with honesty too but he finially came clean with his therapist and felt a million times better. He said he felt less shame and felt more a part of. He then asked me do you want to know what I told him? I said it didn’t really matter, but if he wanted to tell me it was fine……He looked me square in the eye and said…..I told him I thought I was gay………I almost fell over….I wanted to use more crystal meth…..I wanted to run. The shame and fear must have been written all over my face…..but instead of me getting honest, I said that is great. He said yep, if life great…..I am gay, in a drug rehab, an addict and an alcoholic……and then he laughed and I could see he felt free. One day maybe I willhave the courage, but until then………….
