My saving grace
It was 82 days ago that I came to the point of desperation to check myself into rehab. The 37 days I spent at LVH will hopefully continue to prove to be the most important 37 days of the rest of my life. I have never met more caring, loving, devoted people than those I worked with in rehab. I am practicing the skills that I learned. I go to meetings daily, I have a sponsor, I am working the steps and I am working on a relationship with a higher power that I choose to call God. All things that I did not see myself doing a short time ago.
When I came home to Maryland, I cried. I had become comfortable in my safe surroundings and with my new friends who were just like me. Here, I felt like a guest in my own home. I was afraid to go back to work and face my coworkers. But after a short period of time I came to feel that I belong again. It doesn’t matter what others think, what matters is how I live my life and how I feel about myself.
Every day of sobriety is a blessing. It’s great to be able to think again! And guess what? There are people here who know exactly what I am going through too, and they have become my new friends. I look forward to going to A.A. meetings where I can share my feelings and reach out for help and know that it is there.
My saving grace? Desperation. I never want to forget how I felt 82 days ago. It’s what got me where I am today and life is good. Not perfect, but good. A struggle? Some days. But worth every second, one day at a time.
It’s nice to hear from you Ray R. Keep up the good work. We can do it! Hope we hear from more of our friends.
Cindy F.
tristat said,
June 16, 2006 @ 2:31 pm
Hi cindy,
I unlike you didn’t get the oportunity to stay long at LVH but it helped build a strong fondation for my sobriety. I enjoyed my stay and I too look forward to my AA meetings. Stay strong and good luck.